ONE YEAR AGO

One year ago, we were enjoying a family vacation at Mackinac Island.  

One year year ago, A and I commented on how easy life was … JP and AA were growing older and we were out of that baby stage.

One year ago, I took a pregnancy test.
One year ago, my heart sank as I watched the pregnancy test display a "+" sign.
One year ago, I didn't tell A about the "+" test and stayed awake all night wondering how I was going to break the news to him.

One year ago, I bought this bright yellow "B is for Boat, Mackinac Island" shirt.
One year ago, I handed A a brown paper bag with this shirt inside and told him there was a present inside.
One year ago, A thought he was opening a brown paper bag full of beer.
One year ago, A's heart sank as he realized what was really inside.

One year ago, A and I cried and cried.
One year ago, we were terrified.
One year ago, we remembered what the high risk obstetrician and my neurologist had recommended: do not get pregnant again.

One year ago, we decided to place our fear in God's hands.
One year ago, we reminded each other to place our fear in God's hands.
One year ago, we reminded each other AGAIN to place our fear in God's hands.

One year ago, we had no idea just what God had in store for us.

One year ago, we could not fathom just how much joy a new little baby could bring.

One year ago, we did not know what we were missing.

One year ago, one of the best journeys of our life had just begun.